Cutes

Falcon and Waylen say "yaaaay" if you say "do you want a cookie?"

When we want to take just one of them somewhere we sneak him out by am distracting the other. Neal just took Waylen out and I distracted Falcon in their room then I asked him if he wanted to help make browned and he came to the kitchen and said while holding up his hands "where's Waywen?" Then he put his hands to his mouth and quietly yelled  "Waywen where are yoooou?" Several times.

Cannon is smiling all the time now and making "aaaahhh" noises. 

He had been sleeping ALL day from around the time w&f wake up to around 5 and only waking to eat. 

Then he is awake for a while then sleep for a short time and then is awake until w&f wake up again. It is lovely. It is just nearly impossible to keep him awake if he is tired. You can bother him but no matter what his eyes close again!

But he is too cute. 

Over and Over

My days are the same thing over and over again.
Sometimes I don't mind and sometimes it kills me.
The past few days I have gotten like 4 hours of sleep each night.
Monday Falcon woke up at 6 am.
Today they both woke up at 6 am. and Cannon fell asleep finally at 7am (just perfect timing....) after being awake since 1 am.
Neal slept from after we ate dinner all the way to 1 in the morning and we were both just so tired we thought he had gotten like 8 hours because we forgot he was getting home later and assumed he fell asleep at 4 when really he fell asleep at 7.
But he still took care of Cannon after that so I could TRY to sleep but Cannon just kept crying and Falcon woke up crying once that I just wasn't getting rest.
I got to sleep from 10pm to 1am. But after that I got maaaybe 2 hours in 15-30 min increments! haha
That was lovely.
Then when they woke up at 6 I decided to just do laundry and throw myself into doing crap because if I TRY to sleep W&F wake me up so many times I get reallly really really really mad and grouchy.
It is going to be a LOOONG day full of screaming.
It is 7:30 and I already threatened to take away all of their toys so there was nothing for them to fight about because they are constantly high pitch screaming and yelling no at each other for no reason! and that drives me absolutely insane that I shout so loud people who think I am quiet would drop dead..

Prego vs Not

I think besides the discomfort there are sooo many positives to being pregnant.

Everyone is different but here is my experience...

Positives of being pregnant.

It is an excuse Eat whatever you want

freaking nicest skin I have ever had

like zero grease was produced by my body

Zero leg hair

Boobs! Ok I have always had like nearly A size so gong to a B was new territory.

I went almost a week before shampooing my hair every time while pregnant- that was the best part. 

And since I didn't need to wash my hair I didn't shower as often either and when I did shower I was like "whyyyy don't I do this more often?" because it made all aches and pains go away.

Then of course the biggest positive is the experience of growing the cute baby and feeling him kick and move.

The negatives of AFTER baby:

The booobbss! I was excited when I realized I could lay on my belly again but nope actually I can't. It is quite painful.

The weird short flyaway hairs that grow around my face. 

I can only go 2 days again without shampooing. Darn it

My leg hairs grow! Darn it

I don't even mind the extra belly or stretch marks or the weight gain. Those will go away eventually maybe. And if not I don't care at all! 

My worst problem:

The acne that started a month after he was born. It is THE. WORST. EVER. I have never had great face skin (except when I was prego) but this is puberty bad. A mixture of stress/ hormones/ extra oil/ I started (and promptly stopped) using conditioner again. I have never been able to use that stuff without breakouts galore but this is beyond the conditioner problem this time. It is cra a zeeeeeeee these break outs! The worst.

Csection recovery

Like both pregnancies and deliveries were different so were both recoveries.

After W&F recovery was kinda hard. Standing up for the first time it hurt soooo bad I cried. And it still hurt even after they gave me more meds. It hurt when I got home and it hurt when I laughed and it was just not fun.

This time well of course it wasn't fun either but it was EASY once I got home. I even had a cough and threw up a lot this time and while it did hurt some i stood up just fine the first time. The meds were way better or something. I was really drugged this time while with W&F I felt normal instead of loopy.
One problem I had was passing gas. hahahaha yeah hilarious. I was in tears the WHOLE night after he was born because I could freaking fart. and I was starving (no food until you fart) and 4 saltines every 3 hours was NOT holding me over.  SO I went a whole 2 days with no food! I could have just said I did but I was afraid if I ate food and I got sick or something they would know I lied.

I left the hospital a whole day and a half earlier this time without my staples thank goodness!

Thankfully I could laugh with no problems (maybe because all of the coughing being worse than a laugh?) and it healed really fast and the pain was easily managed with just ibuprofen after a week.

I even lifted w&f a few times and vacuumed and did laundry when I shouldn't have... 

I wasn't supposed to do anything but walk for 6 weeks.. Oops.

But I could tell when I was doing too much and would slow down and after all I didn't bust my gut so I think I did ok.

It is so nice when it all stops hurting but it never stops being tender to the touch/ numb and tingly.

I am excited to start yoga again soon. When I get the motivation and time- never. Hah

Feeding toddlers

Auto correct is terrible but I am lazy and I am sure you can figure out which words are supposed to be something else.

I enjoyed feeding w&f when they first started eating food until they got picky. It was exciting as I am sure it always is when your kids hit milestones but holy cow. At this point I wish I has never given them junk food or stopped going them certain foods they didn't like.

They stopped eating bananas, apple sauce, oatmeal, corn, beans, green beans...  so I stopped offering and replaced those things with whatever they would eat. Because I hate kids with empty stomachs.  

Now they eat dry cereal with million cups of water for breakfast. 

Cheese mozzarella sticks, goldfish, yogurt, and fruit snacks for snacks.

Chicken nuggets or fish sticks for lunch. 

Peanut butter sandwiches for snack or lunch.

More dry cereal. Maaaaybe something different for dinner. Usually nothing good.

Two meals they love recently are spaghetti and a rice dish Neal's mom suggested on the back of a chicken rice packet that has chicken, green chilies, black beans, and corn. 

I used to be so good at making hem eat healthy by beating wary of sweet cereal and fruit snacks and junk but that goes down the drain with a dad who doesn't care what they eat/ won't feed then real food and other people watching them because junk food is easy and something they will eat. 

Ooooh how I wish they had never tasted a fruit snack.

It may not seem like a big deal to others or i seem to be overreacting but unless you have twins that are constantly yelling and screaming all day for cookies and fruit snacks and cereal you don't understand. 

I have GOT to crack down on this but I have to do it alone and I have to be consistent with saying no and just ignoring the whining until they decide what I give them is good and healthy and that they aren't going to get what they whine for. And that is HARD. 

I have to just offer the oatmeal or banana or broccoli and if they don't eat it they have to wait until their snack time and then until lunch and so on. 

They have dominated me with their requests and having a baby to breast feed now I can't always get up to get them what they want but they end up screaming in my face so I DO always end up stopping what I am doing to get what they want just so they will leave me alone. And I feel like I have done that so much already it will be impossible to break the habit. 

We have already started to say no to the extra water requests and they have started to cry less and and less depending on the time and situation. Today I said no and they actually said "no more water" and were fine! So maybe there is light at the end of this dark dark tunnel of crazy toddlerhood but I am not very optimistic and I am sure that is part of our problem. 

The Screaming!!!

I cannot take it. 

The past two mornings Neal has taken W&F in the living room while I tried to get sleep in the bedroom with Cannon who sleeps good after 6am....ugh. 

Well the past two mornings Falcon has been screaming the most terrible screams! It is terrible and of course has made me want to scream myself! I cannot stand this crying!

It is always because he isn't getting something he wants.

Today I got up and he said he wanted a snack which means fruit snack so I told him we didn't have any snacks and showed him the cabinet so he could see we had no fruit snacks where they usually are because if try SEE the food is gone they are usually satisfied with that but then he requested waffles and I am not making waffles! So I told him those are all gone too which makes him continue the screaming. Neal finally offered him goldfish crackers and now he is not screaming. Really I think you have to be o top of the food situation if you don't want these hunger break downs! And it is literally no help for me if he is just out there letting him scream bloody murder (I wish I had the screaming recorded for his grown up self) becaude he doesnt understand what he is saying. i mean for an hour straight how am I supposed to ignore that and continue sleeping?  

Really my face shows my non sleep stressed out nastiness. Pimps galooooooore. i feel like I need 10 showers a day because I am covered in milk and spit up and stress grease from my anxious sweating. It is lovely.

Mom's visit

My mom was here for a month.
W&F had the time of their lives having her here because she gives them so much attention that we don't have to really do much in the entertaining department.
She would get up in the morning with them and I slept in. It wasn't really discussed but that's the schedule that happened and I kinda felt bad about it because I know she was tired too but I am grateful for all she did for us. Cooking meals and letting us go out. I don't know how fun it was for her but we are glad she got to come and be here when Cannon was born. It was a special time..

Here are some pictures from my mom's camera of her adventures with the babies.