It feels like forever ago that I had morning sickness and it also seems like it was just yesterday. I feel like I've been pregnant FOREVER but at the same time it's been fast and I can't believe he's almost here.
Waylen and Falcon have been kissing and rubbing my belly and saying "baby Canna" (Cannon) It's the cutest thing but I still don't know if they realize my belly is huge and different.
They are intrigued by babies so I think they will be good with him. Of course I'm sure they will throw toys at him and accidentally do stuff they shouldn't eventually but hopefully they will be gentle and nice most of the time.
I don't know if I want it to happen asap or if I want more days to prepare. Of course I haven't done everything I want to do but at the same time I just don't know how much longer I can handle this child pushing on my insides. He is a strong one.
Today was a hard sort of day because I have a cough, runny nose, was extra tired even though I slept plenty, and W&F were whiny most of the day. Plus Waylen has a cough now too. I think I feel like I have to control everything too much. If I can get them to eat meals at the right times they are happier and play better and ask for less water. When they only eat snacks it's ALL DAY LONG they are whining for constant water bottle refills and they aren't happy. And then there's the constant diaper changes because of all the water refills and I feel like a slave. I get no rest.
I organized all their toys in their closet in closed bins so that I can rotate them out easier and only have a few OR ONE thing out at once. There's less to clean up than if they just have a toybox or multiple open baskets full of toys that they can just throw everywhere. But there are ALWAYS books out and always little scooters they can ride and balls and cars but everything else is put away for my sanity. For now anyway while they don't clean up after themselves and while I am pregnant and have a new baby. Cleaning up toys isn't fun.
Most of the time now they only want their duplos out anyway.
They like to make guns with their blocks and point them and yell "stop" I don't know where they got that from but it was kinda weird. I mean they are boys and they are going to do that kind of thing but it REALLY REALLY made me never want to give them toy guns that look like real ones. At this point in the world I think it is unnecessary to have toy guns that look real. If they want to make them out of legos that look nothing like real guns fine but there will be no mistaking guns for toys in this house. We will never own a real one anyway (maybe a bb gun someday) but never a real harmful gun. But someday they may have friends that live in houses with guns and I want them to know THEY ARE NOT TOYS. I'm not against guns completely but they have always made me nervous and they don't make me feel safer by any means....
Today they watercolor painted for the first time and they really have different styles. It was fun.
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